Last of 2013

My last post before 2014 starts. I hope 2014 will bring me more success and closer to Allah. I really want to forget someone that I care a lot. Ya Allah help me to forget this person forever. Amin. Now lets wait for 2014 :-D

My loyalty is my weakness sometimes.

Yes I am a very loyal person but today I realised that my loyalty sometimes can be my no 1 weakness also. I am too loyal and some people tend to take advantage on me. Yesterday I was scolded by someone I care a lot. The person blame me for what ever problem the person is facing at the moment. Hmmm....perhaps it's time for me not to care about the person anymore. I'm beginning to loose faith in this person. I could see this person true colours long time ago but I keep telling myself that I was wrong. I pray to Allah to bring this person far away from me. At this age I don't want anything anymore except being a good Muslim. I thought this person could bring me closer to Allah but perhaps I put too high hope for someone that I barely know. Look can be deceiving.

Ya Allah if this person is not meant to be part of me please take away what ever caring feeling I have towards this person ASAP. Let me lead a happy life with my family and focus on my career. And let that person lead a happy life also. Amin.

Ya Allah please strengthen my iman. Please take this person away from my heart. Amin. Amin. Amin

  

Minggu yang banyak menguji saya.....

Eh lamanya tak tulis di blog ini. Mujur masih boleh buka ya. Oklah mlm ni terasa spt hendak menulis di blog ni sebab kebarangkalian utk org membaca sgt rendah. Drpd tulis di fb @ twitter baik tulis di sini. Lebih privacy. Minggu ini mmg agak byk menguji kesabaran dan keimanan saya. Saya byk merasa kecewa dgn org2 yg saya sayangi dan rapat dengan saya kerana tindak tanduk mereka yg melukakan hati saya. Saya terasa keseorangan sangat2 dan tiada siapa yg peduli dan simpati. TAPI sebenarnya ada hikmanya bila keseorangan dan kesunyian ni. Saya lebih dekat dgn Pencipta saya alhamdulillah....tiba2 saya rasa Pencipta saya menjauhkan orang2 yg saya sayangi utk berikan masa kpd saya utk mendekatiNya.

Mungkin sudah ditakdirkan saya akan berseorang begini sampai ke akhir hayat. Saya redha......semoga semua ibadah saya dan dosa2 saya diampuni Allah. Amin. Kepada yang telah menganiya saya secara sengaja ataupun tidak, terima kasih kerana banyak mendekatkan saya dengan Allah. Semoga anda beroleh kebaikkan drpd Allah jua. Amin.