More Lies

Today is 13 Jan 2014 the 2nd week of 2014. Each day I found more lies from a person from my past. Alhamdulillah Allah is great for he shows me what I didn't see before. May Allah forgive this person and all of us Muslims. Amin.

Last of 2013

My last post before 2014 starts. I hope 2014 will bring me more success and closer to Allah. I really want to forget someone that I care a lot. Ya Allah help me to forget this person forever. Amin. Now lets wait for 2014 :-D

My loyalty is my weakness sometimes.

Yes I am a very loyal person but today I realised that my loyalty sometimes can be my no 1 weakness also. I am too loyal and some people tend to take advantage on me. Yesterday I was scolded by someone I care a lot. The person blame me for what ever problem the person is facing at the moment. Hmmm....perhaps it's time for me not to care about the person anymore. I'm beginning to loose faith in this person. I could see this person true colours long time ago but I keep telling myself that I was wrong. I pray to Allah to bring this person far away from me. At this age I don't want anything anymore except being a good Muslim. I thought this person could bring me closer to Allah but perhaps I put too high hope for someone that I barely know. Look can be deceiving.

Ya Allah if this person is not meant to be part of me please take away what ever caring feeling I have towards this person ASAP. Let me lead a happy life with my family and focus on my career. And let that person lead a happy life also. Amin.

Ya Allah please strengthen my iman. Please take this person away from my heart. Amin. Amin. Amin

  

Minggu yang banyak menguji saya.....

Eh lamanya tak tulis di blog ini. Mujur masih boleh buka ya. Oklah mlm ni terasa spt hendak menulis di blog ni sebab kebarangkalian utk org membaca sgt rendah. Drpd tulis di fb @ twitter baik tulis di sini. Lebih privacy. Minggu ini mmg agak byk menguji kesabaran dan keimanan saya. Saya byk merasa kecewa dgn org2 yg saya sayangi dan rapat dengan saya kerana tindak tanduk mereka yg melukakan hati saya. Saya terasa keseorangan sangat2 dan tiada siapa yg peduli dan simpati. TAPI sebenarnya ada hikmanya bila keseorangan dan kesunyian ni. Saya lebih dekat dgn Pencipta saya alhamdulillah....tiba2 saya rasa Pencipta saya menjauhkan orang2 yg saya sayangi utk berikan masa kpd saya utk mendekatiNya.

Mungkin sudah ditakdirkan saya akan berseorang begini sampai ke akhir hayat. Saya redha......semoga semua ibadah saya dan dosa2 saya diampuni Allah. Amin. Kepada yang telah menganiya saya secara sengaja ataupun tidak, terima kasih kerana banyak mendekatkan saya dengan Allah. Semoga anda beroleh kebaikkan drpd Allah jua. Amin.

Kyoto Japan (20-25 June 2012).

Alhamdulillah, Allah grant me with this opportunity to be in Japan from the 20-26 June 2012. Most of the times I'll be in Kyoto but I'll be visiting Osaka for 1 day and Tokyo for 1/2 day insyaallah. Before I came to Japan I told my sister and brother in law I don't think I will visit the country again in the future because it is quite expensive to visit Japan. Thank God my whole trip is fully funded by UPM. Alhamdulillah.....but the moment I passed their immigration at Kansai International Airport yesterday I changed my mind. Seriously, I fall in love with Japanese hospitality and friendliness. They are nice people although their country is one of the richest countries in the world but they treated everybody nicely. I'm so touched and impressed with them.

Not like other countries where I visited before, Japanese immigration didn't do any strict check on me. So everything went pretty fast less then 30 minutes. After I left the arrival hall and tried to figure out what to do next I was approached by this gentleman. He introduced himself and it turned out I was randomly selected by him a Japanese policeman not wearing uniform for some Q &A session. But he was extremely  polite and friendly (and cute too). We chat as if we knew each other for so long.......it was a nice experience. Instead of him questioning me I ended up questioning him about Kyoto and other information. He was so helpful......

To be con't.

The Year of 2012

Alhamdulillah it is end of Jan 2012 already. So far life has treating me kind compared my time in Sydney last few months. But I didn't regret my decision to go and work in Sydney ever. Because I like the city and made some strong bondage with a few people there. 1 person in particular is very close to my heart and I thank Allah for this opportunity. What will happen to me for the rest of 2012.....well I leave it to Allah coz he knows what is best for me. I just sent my thesis correction this afternoon to my supervisor and hopefully before end of this week I'll get back his reply. I really want to submit the final version of my corrected thesis before 1st February 2012 insyaallah. So please pray for me. Take care. XOX

My Last Week Working as a PA.......

Yes this is my last week working as a PA to a high post person for our government in Australia. It was a very interesting journey for me I must say. I worked a little bit more then 3 months but the experienced I got out of it was very different from the other organisations I used to work with. The ups and downs, the 'interesting' people I met along the way and so many things will make me a better person hopefully. I learnt so much especially how 'old school' people in the government run things. My late husband if he is still around would be around these 'old school' people age but the way he handled things were so different from them. Oh well....I guess that was one of the reasons why he left the government agency and work on his own until his passing.

What ever it is I have no regret what so ever as the experience I gained here will enriched my knowledge about people and others. During my 3 months plus working here I met someone that might have significant impact in my life. But it is too early to say anything yet. However, if Allah answer my prayers something significant will happen in early 2012. Also, just before Christmas break I got my PhD thesis result saying that I passed with minor corrections. Though I have yet to get the official result but UPM and a few people started to call me Dr already. It gives me goose bump as I think the title is too glamour for me and over here academicians do not use that title. Perhaps when I go back home to Malaysia I'll use it but only for official functions insyaallah. If not I prefer people to use my first name Siti. So that is another great news for me before 2011 ends. So far 2012 looks as if it's going to be super great for me and I pray Allah will make everything smooth from now onwards. After all life begins at 40 and in July 2012 I will be reaching that milestone insyallah. Till then.....happy new year and hope that 2012 will bring happiness and more success to all of us. Amin.