The cruelness of being a widow......

Yes I am a widow for almost 12 years now and I'm proud of it. With my daughter already in her teenage age, life has being pretty good for me. I have a GREAT family who support me through thick and thin. We fight, we laugh, we struggle all together and with lots of love for each other. I'm blessed with that. Allah is great to me, even though 12 years back when I lost my husband on the 1st day of Ramadhan (fasting month) I was asking Allah, why me? With a small daughter (1 1/2 years old) I used to think that Allah was so cruel to take my hubby away. I was very young too. Why me??? But now I know why.....infact I realised about this a few years back when I went to New Zeland for my study. Now I know why Allah tested me in such a way. Because I can handle it. Yes, I'm special to Allah, that's why He choose me instead of other people and I'm so proud of myself too. Being widow for 12 years was not easy. Apart from loosing your husband, you also lost your partner, best friend, and supporter. This is the time when other people who just being 'sick' with thier life will start making all sorts of bad stories about you. Oh yes, within this 12 years time I met with a few 'sick' people. Who are they????????? Sad to say they are Muslim and Malay ethnic like me..........This has nothing to do with religion, Islam is such a GREAT religion with no double standard but it has everything to do with a person's attitude.

Last Monday, once again I met with this 'sick' people who had spread ill rumous about me to others. This 'young' kid thought that he was smart in playing his 'dirty politics' against me a widow with a daughter, with no husband to back me up. Boy, how wrong he is...........not only he's not smart, he is just dumb and plain stupid. It is sad sometimes to meet with this 'sick' boy coz he was using his 'boy' ego against me a widow just because I'm a single mother. I don't think he would act the same if my husband was around. This 'boy' is just being childish and plain stupid in his act. Not only he underestimate a widow, he also too young to understand the thoughness I had gone through to raise a daughter by myself. He can play his game, but this widow is not going to loose in that game. So 'stupid boy' bring it on......................coz I faced a few worst cases than your game and yet, alhamdulillah I'm still standing tall. This widow is here to stay..............as usual as long as Allah permits it. So 'boy' I'm not afraid of you.