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The Year of 2012

2012-01-24T07:14:00.000-08:00

Alhamdulillah it is end of Jan 2012 already. So far life has treating me kind compared my time in Sydney last few months. But I didn't regret my decision to go and work in Sydney ever. Because I like the city and made some strong bondage with a few people there. 1 person in particular is very close to my heart and I thank Allah for this opportunity. What will happen to me for the rest of 2012.....well I leave it to Allah coz he knows what is best for me. I just sent my thesis correction this afternoon to my supervisor and hopefully before end of this week I'll get back his reply. I really want to submit the final version of my corrected thesis before 1st February 2012 insyaallah. So please pray for me. Take care. XOX

My Last Week Working as a PA.......

2011-12-27T22:11:00.000-08:00

Yes this is my last week working as a PA to a high post person for our government in Australia. It was a very interesting journey for me I must say. I worked a little bit more then 3 months but the experienced I got out of it was very different from the other organisations I used to work with. The ups and downs, the 'interesting' people I met along the way and so many things will make me a better person hopefully. I learnt so much especially how 'old school' people in the government run things. My late husband if he is still around would be around these 'old school' people age but the way he handled things were so different from them. Oh well....I guess that was one of the reasons why he left the government agency and work on his own until his passing.

What ever it is I have no regret what so ever as the experience I gained here will enriched my knowledge about people and others. During my 3 months plus working here I met someone that might have significant impact in my life. But it is too early to say anything yet. However, if Allah answer my prayers something significant will happen in early 2012. Also, just before Christmas break I got my PhD thesis result saying that I passed with minor corrections. Though I have yet to get the official result but UPM and a few people started to call me Dr already. It gives me goose bump as I think the title is too glamour for me and over here academicians do not use that title. Perhaps when I go back home to Malaysia I'll use it but only for official functions insyaallah. If not I prefer people to use my first name Siti. So that is another great news for me before 2011 ends. So far 2012 looks as if it's going to be super great for me and I pray Allah will make everything smooth from now onwards. After all life begins at 40 and in July 2012 I will be reaching that milestone insyallah. Till then.....happy new year and hope that 2012 will bring happiness and more success to all of us. Amin.

I'm in Sydney now (since 12 September 2011).....

2011-12-24T14:46:00.000-08:00

Oh yes.....fate brought me to Sydney since 12 September 2011. I work as a Personal Assistant (casual post) for the Director/ Consul/Head of Post at Education Malaysia Australia (EMA)/Consulate of Malaysia Sydney. My bos is a lady bos ;-D and this is my second time working under lady boss....my only comment about her is that the way she handles things is different. Will write more about my experience working at EMA and Consulate of Malaysia Sydney perhaps next year. Till then....cheers.

Time to say goodbye Brisbane........almost but not quite yet.

2011-07-06T02:05:00.000-07:00

Yes it is July 2011 and I had submitted my PhD thesis for my external examiners for more than 1 month now. After 3 years and 9 months in this crazy roller coster PhD journey I still couldn't believe that I actually reached this mile stone. Although, I have to wait for the result from the external examiners but at least I passed so many stages already. Right now I just need to pass 1 final stage before I can be called a Doctor. So many things have happen through out my PhD journey in Brisbane. I make so many new friends as well as 'enemies'. But those who became my 'enemies' are harmful and most of them 'mI still in talking term with them. It's just that now they are no longer in my good book that's all. Also, I will be extra careful to put my trust in them. However, what ever they did to me were nothing major really, and I don't blame them for their wrong doings, because I'm not a perfect person myself. Beside, I know what PhD can do to people especially when you are far away from your family, lacked of attention from your love ones, no one to talk to, and after all my life is too much FUN that made these people envy me to the max. Hahahahaha........I just pray that these people will find happiness in their life one day. And 1 day they can be my friends once again. PhD journey is only for those who has a STRONG resilience towards so many ups and downs. And maybe only half of them came out normal ;-D.

Looking back at those things of what my 'enemies' did to me.....I think JELOUSY has been playing a big role in it. Oh yes.....in my almost 39 years old of life I have came accross so many JELOUSY cases.....that feeling is the most EVIL feeling in all human being. I must admit I have that jelousy feeling too but I ignore it most of the times. I NEVER used it to back stab people or spread ill rumours or exegerate stories to others about anyone. My jelously is only for me to feel and to know. But different people have different ways of handling things....so all of my experiences with these 'special' people will make me a stronger person in life. Also, I learn more about people and how all of us are the SAME no matter where one come from, and even from different culture and believes. We are all the SAME, that's the FACT. There are always the nice and 'not nice' people around us. So we have to deal with it. As for me during my last few weeks in Brisbane I just want to enjoy myself and chill out with my favourite people. For those who are no longer in my good book well......too bad for you kids!!!

15 years back…….1995 it was.

2010-04-08T06:13:00.000-07:00

I could remember clearly on the 20th April 1995, that was almost 15 years back when I was 15 kilos ago and when I was 23 years old I gave birth to a cute and small baby girl at 1.30 am. She was among the smallest babies at Hospital Lati, Pasir Mas, Kelantan. Yes, my baby girl weight was 2.55 kg and it was just enough for me to take her out from the hospital the next day back to my mother in law’s house. She takes my late hubby’s face and my late hubby was really proud of that. He was there at the hospital when I delivered my baby girl but due to Malaysian government hospital’s rules, he couldn’t be inside the delivery room with me. It was my first baby and my hubby wasn’t allowed to be with me……oh well at least everything went smoothly. But let me tell everyone…….the experience of giving birth at a small district government hospital was NOT fun at all. But looking on the positive side, at least I experienced the hardship of giving birth like what my Mum went through (or maybe during her time even worst…..and not to mention during my grandma’s time, and during my great grandma and……oh ok I should stop now). The pain was so unbearable so when I got not so good services from the midwives (there was no Doctor around the ward after 5 pm unless for emergency cases) I just ignored it. I cried for a little bit coz I felt my waist was going to fell apart from my body…….it was just totally PAINFULL (and no I wasn’t given an epidural). I instantly thought of my MUM every time the pain came, I knew then what my Mum had to go through to have me and of course my other siblings (7 of us and 2 miscarriages). I wanted so badly to run straight to my Mum, hug her and tell her sorry for causing her all the pain when I was in her tummy. To ask for her forgiveness to all the wrong doings I did to her before that and to become a good daughter…..but of course my Mum wasn’t there so I just promised myself that the first thing I wanted to do after I go out from the hospital is to call my Mum and thank her, and tell her I LOVE HER so much. But at least I have my mother in law with me. She was in the ward with me and I really appreciate her presence at that time because she really made me feel much better. She massages me for hours, and gave lots of encouragement words. She is a nice mother in law indeed and made me feel like my MUM was there with me inside the ward. I will always remember her in my prayers and I love her just like my MUM.

Hang on……this story is not about me it is about my baby. Ok my baby was tiny but healthy. When we wanted to name her my late hubby let me decide the name hence I requested to put Siti as her first name like me. All the girls in my family have Siti as their first name starting from my grandma, and my late hubby was happy with my choice. The middle name was pretty random really because I thought of name that quite similar to my step daughter (Nurliana). So I decided on Nurellyza and the third name was taken from my name again Suria (thank God my late husband was a very supportive husband). My late husband knew how excited I was in naming our first baby since that was my first and for him, well……he had his time before. He was a GREAT husband indeed, and that’s why until now nobody can replace him in my heart. He was a very SPECIAL man……so we decided to name our daughter as Siti Nurellyza Suria Ab Rahim (my late hubby’s name….Ab Rahim).

But……………something bad happen after 1 week of giving birth to our first baby. My late hubby had to go to another state to attend some important political ceremony and suddenly he had stroke. He was hospitalised and couldn’t talked due to the stroke and later the doctor found that both of his kidney stopped working. After that he never recovered from his kidney problem and he became even sicker, each day and after 1 and the half years he passed away peacefully at the age of 40. My daughter was 1 and the half years old, and I was 24 years old and in my final year doing my degree. What ever it is life goes on……I mourned for his passing for 2 weeks and straight away went back to university to finish my study. I know he will always be with me in my heart and I have to finish my study for my daughter’s sake, myself and my late hubby. That wasn’t all actually, when my daughter was 8 weeks old something else happen…….when we took her for routine check up for baby, the Doctor told us that she was born with internal cleft palate problem http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cleft_lip_and_palate. Hence, she needed special care and had to go through an operation when she got older. Me and my late hubby (he was still around at that time) cried together to learn about this news…..but we knew Allah tested us because HE LOVES us. Of course to accept it was a little bit hard, but after a while we learnt to accept it.

At first we called her Ellyza but later my Mum decided to make it even shorter to Ija and we just followed my Mum after that. Due to my circumstances Mum and Dad came to the rescue, she looked after Ija ever since she was three months old, while I looked after my sick hubby and focus on my study. So Ija stayed with Mum, Dad, my two younger brothers Husna and Husba in my hometown. After my late hubby passed away Ija continued staying with my parents and brothers while I tried to make a living. It was HARD……very HARD, I graduated right in the middle of the worst economic crisis ever hit Asia. That was in 1997 and job was very hard to get, and I was jobless for 6 months…….and once again my parents were there for me. In fact, all my other siblings Kak Na, Kak Chik, Abang Ni, Salwa, Husna and Husba were so supportive and help me in what ever they could. When Ija was 3 years old I took her for the long awaited surgery to fix her cleft palate at a private hospital (oh yeah I learnt my lesson well). Thanks to my late hubby’s powerful friend who sponsored the hospital bill and the problem was fixed. I was and am indeed very blessed, alhamdulillah and that was what my late hubby’s wanted before his death, to fix Ija’s cleft palate…..Not long after that, Allah answered my prayer and I got a better job with Universiti Putra Malaysia (UPM) in the year 2000. In 2007 UPM offered me a scholarship to do my PhD at QUT, Brisbane. At that time I decided it was a perfect timing for me to bring my daughter with me to Brisbane. When I went to Dunedin, New Zealand in 2001 I couldn’t bring her due to financial constraint. But in Brisbane everything is paid for by my government (Thank you Malaysian government for this opportunity). Allah is great……..he knows the best for me, so in January 2008 I took my daughter Ija to come and stay with me in Brisbane. She was 12 years old at that time, and Mum cried so hard until she fall sick for 2 weeks. Imagine that…….I almost sent Ija back when I knew that Mum missed Ija so much but again, I’m blessed to have such a good family. They cried with me, they shared my pain, they supported me through thick and thin and after a while Mum was okay.

Now, it has been almost 2 and the half years Ija stayed with me and she's soongoing to turn to 15 years old in 12 days. I’m so proud of her and I pray to Allah that she will be successful in her life, and will be a good Muslim forever. Ija is a teenage now, a well behave, mature and obedient kid and I have so many people to thank to. For without them I may not be able to have such a great daughter in my life. To those whom I tagged your names here from the bottom of my heart THANK YOU/JAZAKALLAH so much for helping me and Ija to get through in this tough life. I will always in debt with all of you and may Allah bless all of you. To MAK, ABAH, KAK NA, KAK CHIK, ABANG NI, SALWA, HUSNA, HUSBA, ABU, ABANG FUAD and ABANG IZZ you are THE WORLD to me. Thank you for making Ija feels like she has her PAPA and family around all these years. Because of all of you, she NEVER, I repeat NEVER, EVER felt like she has no Dad at all……and all because of yous. I LOVE ALL OF YOU and HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY IJA. Keep up the good work daughter and Umi will always be here for you insyaallah. If Umi is no longer around, insyaallah our family will always be there for you. XOX

Finally..........I am over to the next stage! Part II

2009-11-16T23:47:00.000-08:00

I joined my new faculty which is totally different from my normal background middle of April 09. It was an entirely new experience and totally different environment for me who came from the faculty that is known for their business like and professional approached (bla bla bla...what ever). I must say I had a 'small' cultural shocked at this new faculty of mine hahahaha. Things like unisex toilets; 'artistic' (too artistic) photos; different group of sexuality people (openly declared); and creative story telling (hmmm too detail I must say....). So I was a little bit shocked at first but the funny thing is that, these new group of people accepted me in almost instantly. They really make me feel comfortable and feel at home. Even the g** group are so nice to me and as usual were sooooo fasinated with my believe and religion. So here we go again......explaining about my culture and religion like I always do where ever I go, but don't get me wrong....I LOVE doing it. Looking at how amazed people are with my culture and religion from my perspective is just great. Most of them didn't know much about my culture and religion or got wrong information about it. There are just kind people...I love them all. My principal supervisor is a renown professor in his area and I'm very blessed to have him as my supervisor. He had produced over 30 PhD students.....hmmmm I wonder if I ever gonna produced that many PhD students or even 1/3 of it. Even to finish this journey is still fuzzy and blurry. Anyway, I am so thankfull to my supervisor who agreed to take me under his wing and I still remember the very day he said to me..."You have found your new home now....you have a home now". I cried instantly hearing those kind words (and it happen during our first meeting....how embarassing) and realised once again that, they are actually many kind people in this world. Praise to Allah for that.

Because of my special case status, the uni gave 3 months for me to complete my confirmation which is really hard to achieve like I said earlier even for English native speaker. Of course I didn't achieve it in 3 months time but I achieved it in 6 months time! Wow....what a feeling....at last, THIS IS IT. But the biggest contributor to my confirmation story must be given to my associate supervisor who turned to be my principal supervisor for the past 3 weeks. He really was the person who made this happen....he worked with me so hard for 5 weeks and I hope he will continue doing that after this until I get my PhD. After all the struggles and pain I went through....I got this much awaited confirmation status at my university in Brisbane early Nov. To learn that even the fastest English native speaker student could get through their confirmation stage was within 9 months was really a soothing feeling to me. At least after the long struggle to get my confirmation status there is something you can feel proud of ;-). I started from zero at this new faculty, everything from scratch....as if I was a new PhD student who just registered. I had to start all over again. So to get through the confirmation after 6 months was really a great personal record for me. Yeah, there are so many people involved in this journey which I can't thank them enough but they know who they are and I really appreaciate all their help. Apart from my two most loveable supervisors who help me got through this process and of course my family and friends there is another person who costantly pushed me to work hard. The person is MJFD....sometimes he can be so harsh with his words to me (and he is sooooo young!!!), and I hate that. I really hate it when young people acted that they know everything and on top of that they were right about it. Arghhhh terrible feelings....but to my dearest MJFD, thank you, thank you, thank you. You are a true friend indeed and I hope you'll be successful in your field and your PhD too. I am blessed to have you around in Brissy dude.

This section is dedicated to people who constantly help me with my PhD study in Brisbane (of course there are more but these are the name who directly involved in this journey). Professor Greg Hearn; Associate Professor Michael Keane; Professor Ahmad Shuib; Associate Professor Kusairi Noh; Associate Professor Ghazali Musa; Eric Shelton; MJFD; Siti Salwa Isa and Dila Kamaruddin. I can't thank you enough for all the support, guidance and assistance so may Allah blessed all of you always. Like I said there are more people involved and I thank all of them so much for everything.

Anyway, now that I got my confirmation life is so relaxing I must say. I spent a lot of my time organising parties with lots of food involved, watching youtube, catch up M'sian tv programe and facebooking. Now I'm waiting to go back home for data collection for two months. I need this break althouhg it is not entirely a break but I need this break from Brissy. I haven't been back to M'sia for almost 2 years due to the twisted and dramatic stuffs going on with my PhD starting from Dec last year (2008). But now I can go HOME, yes HOME. And I'm so looking forward for that and can't wait to see my family. But....what is going to happen next after this? Well I guess we just have to wait and see.....because none of us know what the future lay infront of us. Hmmmmmm what I'm thinking right now is just to go HOME. Ok now...PACKING!

Finally..........I am over to the next stage! Part I

2009-11-08T23:25:00.000-08:00

It has been 2 years and 3 months I'm in this crazy research journey (the academicians called it as PhD). With all the dramatic and twisted plots finally, finally I managed to get through my confirmation stage. At my university we have to defend our research proposal after 1 year of our registration. For international student like me we can ask for another 3 months extention without any problems. Should we need more time after that, then only things can get a little bit complicated. For my case, things were a little bit complicated due to miss matched of supervison team. I don't want to go bitching around about the past but it was a very 'expensive' experience for me during that time. Not only both of my supervisors didn't even try to defend me during my confirmation seminar (I can forgive them for doing that actually) but the fact that after I didn't get through the confirmation stage and none of them made any efforts to contact me really make me MAD. I didn't expect them to say sorry or to console me, but just to show some caringness when I was in a deep pain. After all we worked together for 1 and the 1/2 years to do this project but right after my seminar they ignored me as if they never knew me before. My associate supervisor who is almost one year younger than me even pretended she didn't see me if she saw me after that. I was invisible to her eyes....how strange was that!!!!! But.....that's life isn't it, this things will never stop, you will meet this type of human being for the rest of your life. Sometimes even worst than my EX-supervisors. To me both of them are so unprofessional academicians, and as human being they are just immature and childish. Perhaps they thought with their Dr title they are God (puhleaseeeee not in a millions years with that kind of attitude). Opssss hang on didn't I say that I don't want to bitching around about the past hahahahaha. Sorry I got carried away when comes to this particular 'experience'.....

Anyway, finally the sun came out and here I am still in this crazy game with a confirmed status for my PhD status. Yes, after 2 and 3 months of madness changed of supervisors and faculties finally I made it. While my previous supervisors 1 of them left the university that I'm studying at (at the end of the day I was the one who stayed and he left the uni when his original intention was to make me leave....), and another ex-supervisor still working here but hardly dare to look at me if we bumped into each other. I joined my new faculty and due to time constraint the uni asked me to prepare my confirmation document and seminar within 3 months!!!! Even, English native speaker NEVER did that before. The earliest they can submit a confirmation document and had their seminar was in 10 months time. But I had to do it in 3 months time.....what an experience aye. I had to start all over again, everything from scratch and the rest is history.....(To be continued).

Pretty faces........

2009-08-18T21:26:00.000-07:00

This world is only for pretty faces and body to live. Others who don't belong to that group is not being appreciated and often ignored. How sad.......indeed very sad as beauty is skin deep people. Please look beyond those pretty faces.....you'll see some ugliness to it. We are not perfect, none of us are so each one of us has our own strength and weaknesses. So either pretty, ugly, slim, fat, tall or short we are, all of us are beautiful. We are Allah's creation, we are pretty in our own way. Sometimes I feel this is world is so cruel and bias towards unpretty faces and body. No matter how smart, kind, nice and helpful you are, as long as you are not pretty and doesn't has great body nobody pay any attentions to you. This is very true especially to guys........pretty and great body is their first priority to any of the girls they want to have relationship with. How stupid, no matter how 'ugly' this pretty face and great body girl is (internally) they just don't care, and can put up to all the s*** because of the pretty face and body. Hmmmm......but in a way this type of guys should meet this type of girls. Yes, they are competible to each other....served them right after all. If you go for those kind of pretty, than you'll get what you wish for. So to those pretty faces and great bodies with 'ugly' attitude please find this kind of 'stupid' guys because they are not worth it after all for the 'normal' girls. For other 'normal' girls like me, we can leave without guys especially that 'stupid' type of guys and there are other 'normal' guys out there. We are too high standard for the 'stupid' guys group. So to 'normal' guys out there here we come.......or maybe we won't come at all. For my case I've give up on guys coz I'm happy with what I have now. Less headache and problem, seriously.....

Thank God for 37 years.

2009-07-12T20:18:00.000-07:00

Salam and hello. It's been a while aye...yeah I was busy doing this and that and totally forgot that I have a blog to update. Well it's not that I have many readers or anything but at least this blog will keep some important info about my happenings for me to refer to in the future, especially when I become an important person. Yeah....last Saturday was my 37th birthday and I decided to throw a party for my friends in Brisbane. But due to the limited space of my tiny flat I had to organise at 2 different time and still I can't call everyone to the party. I felt quite bad to those whom I didn't invite but that's life.....you can't get everything that you want. It was a great gathering although I was totally flat that nite after all the guests went home by 11 pm. We (myself, Dila my flatmate and Ija my daughter and later helped by Zrett) started off with the preparation since friday (10/07/09) and ended on the day itself 11/07/09 or rather 12/07/09 around 12.30 am. Then Dila con't with cleaning up the kitchen and dishes as early as 8.30 am, thanks Dila for your great help. Without Dila I couldn't manage the party that smoothly especially with the great food. Yummmyyyyyyy, and everyone love it. The menu were, nasi lemak, sambal bilis, boiled egg, chicken rendang, lontong, nasi impit, papadam, baked potatoe, beef lasagne, fruits, biscuits, and cake. Kak Ha one of my guests brought us pulut kuning and chicken rendang and it was instantly a hit for everyone. Thanks Kak Ha.....the first batch of my friends mostly Malaysian and my special guests who are my 'adopted parents' (Theresa and Martin Devine) in Brisbane went back home around 5 pm. It was indeed a great gathering with my Malaysian friends and 'adopted parents' and we has so much fun catching up. We tried not to talk so much about our PhD work but rather talked about random stuff and current issues in Malaysia and Australia like; M'sia tv programme, Aussie/Western culture, Michael Jackson, Cheap flight ticket to M'sia, Eid celebration, Indo maid, and R******* Perempuan P****. I really enjoyed my birthday during the day time.

Quickly after all my guests went home at 5 pm I prepared the baked potato and lasagne for my night party with my international friends. It scheduled at 7 pm and the number of guests were smaller than the afternoon party. I changed into different outfit and 7 pm sharp Clare, Gordon, Siall and Tim arrived. Clare and Siall brought their delicious dip and cracker and raspberry cup cake. It was so nice and we just talked and eat and talked and eat. It was a non alcohol and no shoes party and everyone was fine with the theme. They enjoyed the Malay dishes as much as we enjoyed the dip and cup cake. I'm happy to see that my new friends from my new (not so new anymore) office in Kelvin Grove mixed very well with my friends from Gardens Point. My best buddy Mike Devine didn't come until 9.45 pm coz he overslept....but all the other guests waited for him patiently as we want to cut the cake when everyone is there. But before he arrived all of us had a good chat and laugh about general issue happening around the world. Of course issues like; Michael Jackson re-appeared again together with culture, religion, movies and other random things. At some point we laughed so hard I felt like my flat was shaken....so folks who said you need alcohol to have fun. You can have tons of fun even without them and without shoes also lol. We chat and break to eat, chat and break to have hot tea and around 9.45 pm Mike arrived with his big smile on his face. He didn't eat that much though.....but he stayed till 11 pm before heading to GP to do his work. Yeah, he is a hard working boy and persistent in his work. I'm so proud of him and in debt for 'borrowing' his parents for me in Brisbane. Sometimes when you are far from you parents, you need someone around your parents' age to share your love with. In my case, Mike parents are always there for me whenever I need them should I missed my parents back home. Although it is not the same but in a way it eased a little bit of my feeling towards my parents. Thanks Mike and of course Theresa and Martin for welcoming me and my daughter in your life.

Overall it was a fun birthday party for me although I didn't have quality time to really talked to each and everyone at the party. However, I really feel honored to have lots of great friends around me and at the same time a little bit guilty for not being able to invite more friends to my tiny flat. But this coming Eid celebration in September, God willing (insyaallah) I will invite all of them to my flat for the event. But as usual Dila won't be around as she has to go home to Malaysia to visit her kids and hubby, so I'm going to be supper busy and tired after that I'm sure. But at the end of the day I will feel joy and happy to be able to introduce my culture to friends in Brisbane and to host a great event. What ever it is my 37 years birthday was a great success and I really enjoy myself. I love all my friends in Brisbane. Mmmmmuuuuuaaaaahhhhh to all.

Yes I'm confused.........

2009-01-13T16:58:00.000-08:00

This is the continuation from my previous posting. I'm confused about something hmmmmm and I don't like this feeling. It happen before when I was in New Zealand (a few times) and this is the first time it happen to me since I left NZ and came to Aussie almost 1 and 1/2 years back. I don't like this confused feeling because it brings no good to mee. Especially right now when my first priority should be on my PhD work. Arghhhhhh just go away...........I really pray to Allah to just make me stronger and just forget about this confused feeling I'm experiencing right now. I really want to be successful with my PhD rather than other things here in Aussie. So Allah please give me strength to face this, just let the feeling go away from me PLEASE. That is the LAST thing I need right now. As much as I enjoy it I HATE it too. It makes me feel hopeless sometimes thinking about it, where is it going to lead me, is there future to it bla bla bla. At the same time the uni is being so slow to process my application to change to another faculty. Hence I ended up in a hanging situation right now. I can't really con't doing my work much until I get the approval from my uni. Although I'm doing work still but I want the uni to act fast on this issue as I want to con't with my work really fast and to move on with my life. Perhaps because I'm not really busy compared to before with my PhD work that's why the confused feeling came to me. Arrggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Ok I'll try to ignore this confused feeling as much as I can and will inform this blog with my latest development. But first lets try to ignore the feeling..........Wish me luck. Cheers.

It's happening again......this crazy feeling!

2009-01-12T03:40:00.000-08:00

It's 12 days we are in 2009. I must say that the new year celebration in Brisbane was the most boring ever new year I've ever been too. Might as well I just stayed at home and go to sleep early like what I normally did when I was in Malaysia. It was only Me & Dilla celeberated it at first watching the firework frm my office (avaoiding the crowd), followed by sitting at Queens Garden and at last.............................we went to Bibi/Amir room to celebrate new year with styling. I'm so sleepy suddenly I have stop writing will con't letter. It's happening agin, that crazy feeling when you are torn in between, confused, happy, sad etc, etc.........Later ya. Cheers.

The cruelness of being a widow......

2008-09-17T07:37:00.000-07:00

Yes I am a widow for almost 12 years now and I'm proud of it. With my daughter already in her teenage age, life has being pretty good for me. I have a GREAT family who support me through thick and thin. We fight, we laugh, we struggle all together and with lots of love for each other. I'm blessed with that. Allah is great to me, even though 12 years back when I lost my husband on the 1st day of Ramadhan (fasting month) I was asking Allah, why me? With a small daughter (1 1/2 years old) I used to think that Allah was so cruel to take my hubby away. I was very young too. Why me??? But now I know why.....infact I realised about this a few years back when I went to New Zeland for my study. Now I know why Allah tested me in such a way. Because I can handle it. Yes, I'm special to Allah, that's why He choose me instead of other people and I'm so proud of myself too. Being widow for 12 years was not easy. Apart from loosing your husband, you also lost your partner, best friend, and supporter. This is the time when other people who just being 'sick' with thier life will start making all sorts of bad stories about you. Oh yes, within this 12 years time I met with a few 'sick' people. Who are they????????? Sad to say they are Muslim and Malay ethnic like me..........This has nothing to do with religion, Islam is such a GREAT religion with no double standard but it has everything to do with a person's attitude.

Last Monday, once again I met with this 'sick' people who had spread ill rumous about me to others. This 'young' kid thought that he was smart in playing his 'dirty politics' against me a widow with a daughter, with no husband to back me up. Boy, how wrong he is...........not only he's not smart, he is just dumb and plain stupid. It is sad sometimes to meet with this 'sick' boy coz he was using his 'boy' ego against me a widow just because I'm a single mother. I don't think he would act the same if my husband was around. This 'boy' is just being childish and plain stupid in his act. Not only he underestimate a widow, he also too young to understand the thoughness I had gone through to raise a daughter by myself. He can play his game, but this widow is not going to loose in that game. So 'stupid boy' bring it on......................coz I faced a few worst cases than your game and yet, alhamdulillah I'm still standing tall. This widow is here to stay..............as usual as long as Allah permits it. So 'boy' I'm not afraid of you.

I'm still struggling.

2008-08-21T06:21:00.000-07:00

Blogging has been a bit slow for me nowadays. I rather spend my time on facebook coz it's so simple and easy to use. Also, people read my notes on facebook more than they read my blog. Wait until I become somebody hahaha oh anyway, I am somebody now. Yup, I'm the new Vice President of Persatuan Pelajar Melayu Queensland (PPMQ). We have approximately 400 members but the active ones are around 100 plus and the hyper active ones are around 50. Not bad huh? But don't ask too much about my PhD work though, it's not progressing the way I want and my supervisor wants hehehe. But I'm going to fight hard to win in this 'game'. I won't give up insyaallah. After all I owe a lot to M'sian government for sending me here and of course I owe big time to my Mum who scarified so much for me. I'll get this PhD for her insyaallah.

Lately I'm always stuck with ideas of writing my research. I'm doing my method chapter and......Allah help me please. I was stucked for almost a week now. Hmmmm but thank God I have great support from people around me especially my office mates at Level 7, Z Block, Garden Points. They are just awesome, we support each other very well. Oh one more thing, I just took up my guitar lesson from a very nice young guy who's also doing his PhD. Mike Devine is such a great guitar teacher and I love learning guitar from him. With guitar lesson, I'm doing quite fine. It really makes me feel good in away. I always practise my guitar around 5 ish in the evening and by that time I had enough of looking at my research work. So it kind of a break for me when I practise guitar and I'm doing alrite. Thanks Mike, you rawk.

Oh well, enough said for today. Will write again later and before I go I really hope that Anwar Ibrahim lost BIG TIME in this coming election in Permatang Pauh, Penang. He is so full of s&*(% that guy. BIG LIAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Malaysian people need to be extra cautious of him. He is so US favourite guy and you know what US capable of doing....................Allah please keep him away from us. Amin.

Mum gifts.........

2008-06-16T07:24:00.000-07:00

On Wednesday 11/06/08 an old friend of mine from M'sia came to Brisbane for a holiday. She went to stay in Gold Coast for 3 nights before put up 1 night in Brisbane city. Her name is Wan Fauziah and we went to St Nicholas Convent, Alor Setar together. We were classmates and we had great time together back then. But after our school days and she went to US for her degree we became a bit distance. How sad, that's just the circle everyone has to go through in life. Now as we grow older, we tried to stay connected as much as we can. So, when she told me she's coming to Brisbane, I was quite excited and looking forward for that day. Before she came here, I asked my sister to pass to Wan a few things such as Malay movie DVDs and my Tok's baju Kedah. Actually I just need the DVDs coz the baju Kedah can be sent later coz now is winter time, and baju Kedah my Tok (grandma) all are so thin. All of them are suitable only during summer, but my sister insisted to send me the bajus. It turned out that actually Mum made me 2 baju Kedah for my birthday next month. My Mum is such an angel, if you haven't seen an angel you have to see my Mum hahaha. She made me this beautiful baju Kedah and when I open it (last nite since I was so preoccupied with other things during the weekend) my eyes filled with tears. I miss my Mum and family back home and I'm here in Brisbane only for 4 months now. I'm so homesick especially nowadays when students go home for long semester break. I'm homesickkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk.

But the baju Kedah make me feel as if my Mum is here with me in Brisbane. While my Tok's baju Kedah make me feel as if I huged her warm body. I miss Tok also, and may Allah bless her soul. I'm so overwhelmed with all the baju Kedahs I got from home and even though the whether is a bit cold at night time, I'm wearing the baju Kedah now and for the rest of the week. I LOVE you Mum and my whole family in M'sia. May Allah bless all of us so that we can meet again end of this year. Amin.

Tired, bored and happy....(Random title)

2008-05-25T21:57:00.000-07:00

When I started first blogging, I was so into it. After a few months plus with a few datelines approaching I became less focused to my blog. So many things happen lately but I'm too lazy to update this blog. Yup I'm tired of studying.......it's never right no matter how hard I tried. I'm so bored being positive but it's too early to be bored. I'm tired of trying.....I want to go back home to Mommy. I miss my Mommy heaps and my sisters, and my brothers and my nephews, and nieces.......I'm tired, bored BUT I'm happy too. Yeap, at least nowadays I'm quite happy with friends around me. Either at my office or at home, I have friends that I can rely on. They support me through tick and thin. My office mates are just awesome, they are just there for me when I need a shoulder to cry on (but I haven't cry yet ever since I've started my PhD.....eventually I will but so far so good). I LOVE my officemates at 7th Floor, Z Block, Garden Points, QUT. They are just my inspiration........not forgetting my other friends after my office hours. I'm so glad I found true friendship among other M'sians here. I'm having such a great time this year ever since my circle of friends among my fellow M'sians in Brisbane getting wider and stronger. To all my fellow M'sian friends in Brisbane, THANK YOU for making my life in Brisbane becoming interesting, richer and happy. You people are great. Those who I can call circle of close friends among M'sians are; Zaini & Naem (my lovely neighbour); Norfadhilah & Azri; Fakhri; Rahmat & Asmah (my new buddies); Ismael & Abby (young married couple); Shikin & Azizul (the first couple I've met in Brisbane and very kind to me) and of course my dear Reza & Bibi (UNILODGE patrons). The list can go on, and on but as for now the name mentioned here are those who are very dear and meaningful to me. I'm glad I know all of you and hope those frienship will remain forever. Same goes to my officemates too..................to all of you, I LOVE ALL OF YOU. Cheers.

Siti Isa 3.23 pm

Tercetusnya idea di Tingkat 7...........(again this one has to be in Malay)

2008-04-14T01:54:00.000-07:00

Salam n selamat sejahtera. Lately, my interest on M'sian politic have been very huge. Who can blame me aye? With all the dramas, pointing fingers, lashed out, blaming previous leaders, blaming current leaders and so on. It's getting so interesting just like watching Dallas or Dynasty or even a reality show......And the show continues with more interesting changes and so on. Hence, I'm beginning to observe the M'sian political scence more closely and I talked more about politics nowadays than before. And..........................today 14/04/2008 semasa I berborak-borak kosong pasal pelbagai perkara dgn rakan2 baru dan lama ku kenali di tingkat 7, U................, Brisbane telah mencetuskan satu idea yg bakal menyaksikan perubahan politik di Brisbane dan M'sia khususnya. Dalam pada berbual-bual kosong itu tiba2 kami berlima telah mendapat ilham daripada Allah yg maha Esa utk melakukan sesuatu utk menyatukan bangsa M'sia. Pada mulanya kami berlima hanyalah bergurau mengenai idea dan ilham hasil cantuman lima budak yg tidaklah begitu mahir dlm sepak terajang politik M'sia. Tetapi kami begitu optimis yg idea kami berlima yg mungkin pada sesetengah org agak 'budak2 hingusan' dlm politik boleh diterima pakai oleh org ramai. Kami juga sgt yakin kami akan mendapat sokongan akar umbi di dalam hal ini, iaitu menegakkan kebenaran atas dasar membela rakyat.

Satu persetujuan drpd kami berlima telah dibuat yg bakal menyaksikan kejutan bakal berlaku dia bumi Brisbane ini demi kebaikkan semua pihak iaitu rakyat M'sia. Cetusan idea kami di tingkat 7, U..............akan kami bawa ke peringkat yg lebih tinggi. Kami 100% yakin yg pucuk pimpinan M'sia akan bersetuju dgn ilham kami yg kelihatan sgt relevan pada ketika saat genting politik M'sia sekarang. Oleh itu, warga M'sia di Brisbane semua, tunggu sajalah apa yg akan terjadi dalam masa terdekat ini (dgn izin Allah). Insyaallah, niat baik kami bakal menyaksikan perubahan yg drastik kepada kancah politik di M'sia dan juga di Brisbane. Tujuan kami hanyalah satu, iaitu kebenaran utk rakyat jelata walau di mana saja mereka berada. Tunggu saja khabar baik daripada kami dan di ketika itu, kami amat berharap agar rakyat M'sia dia Brisbane ini akan bangkit dan bangun menyokong kami. Sekian......................................wassalam.

Aduhhhhhhhhh......................and the dramas continue (this entry has to be in my language)

2008-04-07T05:59:00.000-07:00

Salam dan selamat sejahtera kepada semua. Aduhhhhhhhhhhhh.....and the dramas continue will comments on a few dramas happening around us and effecting our life as Malaysians.

Drama 1
Sufiah is not regret to be a )&%*#$@ in London or is it Manchester? (Refer to Harian Metro/Berita Harian/Klubkidd blogdrive). Well there you go folks the girl is enjoying her "Pretty Woman" job so don't waste your time sending the Deputy Minister to safe her. Adoi, x kanlah x boleh pikir kot wahai Menteri2, Timb.2 Menteri dan mereka yg sama waktu dgnnya. Takkanlah sebab kes Safiah ni sorang yg bukan pun lahir di M'sia dan secara automatiknya telah menjadi rakyat UK sampai nak gunakan duit rakyat M'sia utk hantar Timb. Menteri ke UK utk menangani kes Safiah ni. Pas tu kalau dia x nak berubah, apa Timb. Menteri tu nak buat? Kenapa begitu yakin yg si Safiah ni nak berubah kalau berjumpa dgn Timb. Menteri ni? Just because the Deputy Minister is an ustazah, doesn't mean she can stop Safiah from doing what she likes best (#$^*!#). Beside, Safiah won't know who the Deputy Minister is and I don't think she will listen to her. So lepas tu, Timb. Menteri tu kena pi visit dia lagi di lain masa dan ketika on our (M'sians) expenses lagi. Aduhhhhhhh tlglah pikir projek yg boleh membawa kebaikkan kepada semua org di M'sia drpd dok hantar org2 politik ni ke luar negara utk buat misi2 yg x bermanafaat ni. Bukanlah x kesian kat Sufiah tu tapi cukuplah suruh pegawai2 kedutaan je take care of the problem. Lagi pun Mak si Sufiah tu pun ada kat sana dan lagi skali, Sufiah tu bukan rakyat M'sia. Sedangkan ramai lagi rakyat M'sia yg hidup lebih keji yg perlu ditangani oleh para Menteri2 dan Timb.2 Menteri daripada dok tengok kes2 di luar negara je. Cukuplah berjln makan angin sikit2 kat overseas........cukuplah tu, after all the politicians should look at the problems in M'sia now instead of looking problems elsewhere. Dah byk damage yg org2 politik buat kat M'sia so focus on the problems in our country first PLEASE.

Drama 2
Pak Lah reasoning on why BN lost in M'sia last National Election was totally .............................FUNNY! (the most decent word I can find to describe it). Very funny indeed because after 1 month only he can came up with his reasoning. Kelakarlah u Pak Lah....sgt kelakar, so are we on candid camera??? Seriously, what a lame reason you came up with by blaming on other people. Just when we thought that you'll come with a genuine reason of why BN lost you gave us that funny reason. Aduhhhhhhhhhhhhhh Pak Lah, PLEASELAH........apa tu sabotaj? Bukan dah lama ke sabotaj mensabotaj ni berlaku di kalangan ahli2 BN dan UMNO? Sorry if I'm wrong but it's nothing newlah. It's not news anymore to us, dah basi pun. Apa yg Pak Lah rasanya perlu investigate adalah kenapa depa ni mensabotaj BN @ UMNO? WHYYYYYYYYYYYY? WHYYYYYY? Itu persoalannya, baru je Pak Lah dok citer dkt 1 donia nak pi jumpa ahli2 UMNO dan rakyat hingga ke akar umbi so inilah masanya investigate pasai apa depa ni memberontak? Adakah sebab x setuju dgn cara pemilihan calon yg dengar2nya byk dipengaruhi oleh seorang budak muda yg sgt rapat dgn Pak Lah @ pun depa x berkenan dgn cara pembahagian wang dsbnyalah. Takkanlah reason BN kalau teruk hari tu 1 tu je. Saya PASTI sebab utama adalah org meluat dan menyampah dgn anak muda yg menjadi pojaan hati Pak Lah tu. Juga mungkin org dah x percaya dgn imej bersih Pak Lah dah kot? Aduhhhhhhhhhhhh Pak Lah, Pak Lah tlglah keluarkan pendapat2 yg bernas sikit. Macam mana nak gain M'sians trust in you lagu ni????? You have to rebranding yourself Pak Lah. Malas nak berleter pjg2......terpulanglah.

Drama 3
Shabery, Zahid and Nazri punya statement about Tun Mahathir. Aduhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh what a statement kelakar, lagi skali terasa cam dlm rancangan Senario. These Ministers they should be comedians lah. Malas nak cakap lagi. Oklah dah ngantuk. Till then. Cheers everyone and to be con't. Ta

Malaysia Latest Hot News......my comments.

2008-03-31T20:50:00.000-07:00

Hot News 1 (or not so hot now...) - Khairy Jamaluddin

Where is Khairy Jamaluddin? He used to be sooo vocal before the General Election last month, but now he's been so quiet. What happen to him? It's kind of spooky because this Pak Lah favourite guy hasn't been in the media ever since after Malaysian election. Before the election result and ever since Pak Lah became the Prime Minister, this guy had been the normal face in M'sian media but now, not any more. How come? Speaking of which, I am reading a book by Malaysia Today about Khairy. Hmmmmmm now I understand why he suddenly appeared in M'sian politic scene. All I can say is, this guy is scary........What ever it is, I believe that Allah is the greatest. So Khairy, I really hope you realise that too. Arrrr....I wanted to say more things about him, but I can't (not here at least). But this guy (KJ) is someone all of us need to watch very closely and of course his friends too (the young Datuks/Dato's and millionaires/billionaires). Alrite, let's move on to the second news.

Hot News 2 - Safiah Farouq

Alahai.........apasal cam tu sekali Safiah?????? I heard before this about how Safiah the brilliant girl from London who got M'sian government scholarship to study at Oxford because her Mum is M'sian has gone wild. But it didn't across my mind that she's gonna sell her body for money! (refer to Utusan Malaysia/Berita Harian) I hope the news is not true. At the same time, this is not the first case of brilliant girl/boy/lady/man has gone wild with their 'brilliantness' (a new word I just created). Just look at Britney Spears (ok she's not brilliant but she's a good marketer), the Singaporean lady who had %*^&# with more than 20 guys at one time (I think her name is Chong) and other cases around us. Sometimes this girls just don't know how to handle their fame. It is very sad.....very, very sad because she can use her brilliant mind to get a real good job instead of being a h@#$%^. Why Safiah? Is this some kind of rebellious against your parents? Is this some kind of revenge for your Mum and Dad? Live is not as bad as you think it is girl. There are many other peoples who lived and still living in a worst situation than you, but they didn't end up like you young girl. Oh Safiah.....my prayer is for you to change your life style and have a good life after this. There are so many people who care for you especially your Mum. But even if you don't want to go back to your family, you can always seek help from other people and most importantly, from almighty Allah. Ask for help my dear. Oh Safiah. May Allah show you the way.

Hot News 3 - Mawi won the Bintang Popular Award (most popular artist) 2008 for the 3rd time

I'm not a big fan of millionaire Mawi, the Akademi Fantasi 3 reality show winner. But I like him. Why? Because I think he's the best icon of entertainment world for Malaysians. To me, the other Malaysian entertainers and celebrities are sad to say, not a good example for the public to follow. It's not that Mawi is perfect but he is the best one that M'sia has at the moment (I think). The existing singers/actors/personalities are too .....................fake! Well people been saying that he's so 'kampung' and stuff but maybe because I'm from 'kampung' too that's why I like him. To me he's the right icon for M'sians especially for 'kampung' people not just to become entertainers like him, but to work hard and achieve their dreams. To 'kampung' people especially, you can succeed in so many field, not just by becoming singer/actor. By study hard, work hard and pray hard you'll reach your dreams. All the best and good luck.

Also won during the award event was Siti Nurhaliza for the popular female singer for the 11th time in a row, congrats Siti. I like her mesmerise voice but when she sings English songs, eeeeeee I don't like it. It sounds funny because her singing style is not right I guess, but other than English songs I like it. Oh I heard she sang Dealova an Indo song (beautiful song), also terrible!!! But for Malay songs, she nailed it, BIG TIME! As for other aspects of her......I reserved my comment. But to me she's the better behave celebrity for female in M'sia compared to the others, including her not so popular younger sister so oklah. Tak nak komen panjang2.

Oh I LIKE it A LOT that Farah Fauzana won the popular Radio DJ. Well done girl, well done!!!!!! Linda Onn from Era LOST at last. Great news, such a great news. She beat Linda Onn who won the title for 6 times previously. I always looking forward for when Linda will get beaten by someone and this year, the public has spoken. I'm so happy.........well I used to admire Linda's talent in DJing and MCing, but for the past few years she's becoming too much (I think). The way she handles her talk show (Tanya Linda) was really crap! As a DJ she is still not too bad, but apart from that just 'perasan bagus' (thinks she so good). Who can forget when she was chosed to host this Academy Award 2007 in LA for Astro channel and chicken out on that very day!!!!!!!! She blamed it on her dress! Bah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Come on Linda, you have to give more than that lame reason. In fact, it is the lamest reason I've ever heard. Because your dress it too sexy? Hahahahahaha joke of the decadelah girl. Come onlah, you have to give us some credits dear. We M'sians are not that stupid ok. Same thing about your love life with Fahrin..........Alrite lets move on to the next hot news....

Apek also won! Glad to hear that, well done dude. You rock! I believe you are more than just a comedy actor. I still remembered when you joined the Sinaran Passport Kegemilangan competition, all of my family like you so much. We can see a huge potential in you but too bad you lost in the semi final (sorry we didn't vote for you in fact we didn't vote for anyone too). But now you proved to every one that you are more than just a comedian. You always make me smile and laugh. So keep rocking dude, and I'm looking forward for your first movie as a director. To me you are P.Ramlee in the making, your voice also not too bad. You can sing quite well Apek (better than the Akademi Fantasia contestants!!) so go for it. All the best!

And that's all that I have at the moment. The other winners who won that nite are not my favourites so I don't want to comment about them. Some even not in my 'good book' hahahaha like Rosyam Noor (oppsssss, personally he's very nice and his acting also not bad but he can be so 'perasan' sometimes and gave 'stupid' comments about a few issues so that's why I dislike him). But what ever it is, congrats to all the winners and hope you can give something back to the public. Actually I don't have the right to say much about who should win or not since I NEVER sent forms/txt or anything for my favourite artists (my family too). Yeah, I like entertainment world but that's it! No more...........

That's all for now. Till then, cheers.

P/S: The Akademi Fantasia 2 consert was terrible just like the 1st one. I don't understand why this sister to a very popular singer in M'sia keep on crying, sulking and so on because she can't handle the stage fright and pressure. So why do you want to become a singer after all??????????????????? I think your children need you more at home rather than you keep on crying all the times. Just go home. It's your choice girl.

It's Friday, I like!

2008-03-27T20:25:00.000-07:00

Salam and hello. It's Friday again, part of me is so happy it's Friday but part of me is not because I have tons of work to submit next week. But that's life isn't it? Work, work and more work. I'm suppose to do a few things today, but I have so little of time. This morning I went to Vodofone shop to get a new mobile since I'm gonna give my daughter my current mobile phone, but the shop running out of mobile phones! The model that I'm interested in sold out for the second time. Grrrrrrr......tonight the M'sian students' association is organising Maulidur Rasul gathering at West End masjid (mosque - after this I'll use the word masjid in all of my entry alrite). Hence, I have to go back a little bit early to prepare some food to bring to the masjid. We M'sians and other Asians love food so much, that's why everytime we have gathering food is a must. Our light food means something like, fried mee and stuff. I'm planning to do "karipap" (something like curry puff) for this evening gathering. What am I going to wear huh? Hmmmmm a long skirt or baju kurung? The thing is that if baju kurung than I have to iron it (too lazy for that), and if long skirt, ala-ala glamour lah pulak nanti. What ever it is I have till 5 pm to think about it. I'm supposed to do work today at my office but as usual I ended up updating my blog. It's so typical you see, when I have the mood to do work, people in my office started to scream, laugh and all. When I don't have the mood to work, the office will be soooooooooooooo queit. How cruel.

I think I'm coming to the office tomorrow to do some work. My daughter will have to stay at home or I'll send her to Bibi's room hahaha (I have to ask Bibi on this). But I won't be long since I'm planning to invite a few people to eat at my flat. But it is still not confirm yet because I have to think of the menu. Nasi lemak ke nasi biasa? Oh that remain me to browse the receipi website....Ok got to do it now before I'm off for today. Till then, take care and cheers.

Sounds promising Minister.....

2008-03-25T06:17:00.000-07:00

Hello to all. Today the new Minister of Higher Education, Dato' Khaled Nordin made an interesting announcement. He says, the public universities in M'sia will be given more power to make their own decision on policies, rules and regulations. At last, some ministers do have a brain! Not to say that some of them don't have a brain, but they hardly use it sometimes. All the want to think is, for their ownself. So Dato' Khaled hopefully after this you will continue giving more brainy ideas and come with good plan for the public universities in M'sia. It's about time the public universities are given more power to do what they like as long as it brings benefit to M'sians. I'm sure the academicians at the unis know what they want to do because they are brainy too, just like the politicians! Most of us have tons of great ideas but we can't implement it due to so many red tapes by the government. So just let us run the unis our way and we'll leave the politicians to run the country your way, promise! Like I said earlier, as long as it will bring the good for the country. Maybe now my department will have our own course after 8 years of battling at the faculty level, university level and ministry level. If not, I might end up staying in Aussie for good. Even though M'sia is always inside me but at times I'm quite frustrated how things being handled over there. Not to say that Aussie's system is spotless, but at least they are one step ahead of us. So pak Menteri semua sila ambil perhatian........................

Till then, cheers. Nak tidurlah. Ta

A FUN BREAK.

2008-03-24T05:09:00.000-07:00

Yup last Easter (the spelling is this one or Esther?) break was a fun one. Me and my other friends including my daughter Ija went to Sunshine Coast, Queensland. It was a 1 and the 1/2 hours drive from BNE and it was quite dramatic as well. First, it was very hard to rent a car. Second, the rental price gone up so high compared to normal day. Third, our booking got cancelled when we went to pick up the car at the car rental office!!!!!!! It was Abel rent a car....(thank you!). Anyway, thank God one of our friends managed to get hold of this van and all of us were squeezed in the van and another car. When we almost reached Sunshine Coast, the temperature went up. After they checked the water tank, it was totally empty.....oh Gosh! But nothing bad happen. So after we refilled the water tank, the van happily took us to Bli-bli Castle. The entrance fees was AUD 10 and it wasn't that bad, but it wasn't that good either. It was errrrr.........too simple I should say. The collections was a bit 'buruk' no new additonal to the collections. For adult, it could be boring.......anyway the castle design and architecture is nice. If they put more attractions inside the castle, it will be better.

Second stop was this small scale theme park (forgot the name). It was quite expensive to take the rides inside there so I decided to try my hand on mini golf with my daughter. Surprisingly my point wasn't that bad. We have 18 holes and my point was 22 par (is that how you report it?). I came in 4th. place from out of 7 people playing, so it wasn't that bad at all wasn't it? After all that was my first try. So gitulah citernya, I might think of playing golf after this hahahaha. Third stop was at this beautiful beach for our heavy picnic. Poor the 'mat salleh' terkejut tengok the amount of food we have on the table. Really like a big feast with rice and all. After eating some of us went to swim including my daughter. I was just watching her from the beach, she seemed to enjoy herself. It was the first trip for both of us to Sunshine Coast. I'm glad she enjoyed herself. After that, we drove for 1 hour to Red Cliff beach, and had our BBQ there. By that time all of us were already tired with eating and with the journey. We packed our stuff around 9.30 pm and headed home. We reached home at 11.30 pm. To me, the trip was a fun trip with friends and make us become closer to each other. We might have another similar trip to a different location next month or something. The total cost also was not too expensive as we divided equally among ourselves. For me and my daughter we just had to pay AUD 30 for the van rental and the petrol. For attractions, the cost was AUD 33 and the food was around AUD 20. So not badlah kan...............

The following day of Easter break that was on Sunday 23/03 a friend of mine did this 'akekah' ceremony for their new born baby girl. Makan freelah yihooooo, thank you Kamal and Zalifah, senang2 buatlah lagi ye. The food was nice too, nasi minyak, ayam masak merah and kari kambing. The last day of Easter break that is today 24/03 I went to DFO with Naim. So apa lagi shoppinglah. Kesian Ija tak dpt ikut sebab kereta dah penuh, but I bought her a new Swatch watch and shoes. Petang pulak, ada jemputan makan2 dkt rumah Aini & Firdaus so, makan free lagi. The nasi ayam and lontong was very nice. Thanks people. I feel so loved with all these kind invitation. Oklah nak tidurlah dah ngantuk plak. Till then, take care and cheers.

Betul ke tu.....? Is it true?

2008-03-21T02:28:00.000-07:00

Lately I like to read news about M'sian political happening. So dramatic........yg itu tuduh yg ini, yg ini tuduh yg itu. Gossip org2 politik lagi hebat dari gossip artis2 lately ni. Pak Lah and a few BN leaders claimed the opposition parties is trying to 'buy' BN people who won during last election. But the opposition parties denied the claimed................hmmmm yg mana 1 betul ni? Pak Lah ke the opposition? From what I can see even though I'm not in M'sia the claimed could be true to some extent. Opposition said they don't have money to 'buy' BN people but hey come on lah........aren't some of you got heavy sponsorship from a few bodies abroad (aye Anwar Ibrahim)? In politics nothing is impossible so Pak Lah what are you going to do about it? You are facing with a very HUGE problem not only within BN but also with the rest of Malaysians. Maybe you should sit down with Ku Li who offered alternative way to UMNO people (you know what it is lah) and come with a good way to make everyone happy. Maybe you should sit down with opposition leaders who are patriotic of being Malaysian like Dr Tan the MP of Kepong, (is it?) from DAP, Nik Aziz the Kelantan MB from PAS and a few others (but not Anwar please, he always slam M'sia abroad, so to me he's not patriotic....) and come up with a good solution for a better Malaysia.

For the past few year after Tun Mahathir's era (Pak Lah can include him too in the meeting mentioned above) there's none of M'sian success story aired in the international media except for the Hindraf (to me it was really over doing, come on lah......). Malu lah weiiiii apalah, geram sgt. I mmg marah sgt, marah dgn everyone..............Like other M'sian I am so proud of our country (errr except for a few people like AI and etc), but laltely me and other M'sian are not so happy with a few leaders running the country. A few here means more than 10 leaders like......errr I reserved my comment. But at least I'm so happy that Effendi Norwawi's name wasn't listed as a Minister. I think he's a nice guy personally by as a Minister he was a failure, BIG TIME failure. Perhaps he should stick to what his wife is doing in the entertainment business, plus his wife personality doesn't really suit as a Minister's wife. She tried her best, but againg BIG TIME failure Tiara. You should stick to your acting, wife and mother lah, Minister's wife doesn't suit you I think. What ever it is I really hope M'sia will have a great success this year and in the future and produce world class leaders after I finish my study here in Aussie hahahaha. Good luck to Pak Lah (you need it, seriously....) and everyone in Malaysia. Take care and cheers.

2008-03-19T21:06:00.000-07:00

Hola! At last I'm a bit free today, that is 1 day before Easter so I had to run here and there to stock up few things. Most of the shops will close for four days and being me who like to eat, I better have enough food at home. After all what other activities can you do on Easter break? We are planning to go up to Sunshine Coast for 1 day. We managed to rent a small car but the price went up double than the usual rate. Well 1 day is enough for me I guess, since I have a few things to do and to submit after the break. But I really wanna go to Direct Factory Outlet shops............Haiya, whylah they close on Easter, and when I have a car (renting). So maybe (just maybe) now I have to postpone my plan to DFO. Oh before that I just want to wish all the Muslims around the world a very Happy Maulidur Rasul. Yup today is our prophet Mohammad's s.a.w birthday. I hope all of Muslims and other faith can live happily ever after on this planet, together. Of course there are some good Muslims and some bad Muslims, it's just the same in other faith too. Hence, let's make this world a better place for all human being to leave. Because the huge majority of us are GOOD people.

Living abroad in a different environment sometimes you came across funny situation. What ever it is, it makes your life experience become richer and greater. I didn't travel much but I went to a few countries like Jordan, Turkey, Thailand (of course, our neighbour ma! and of course very near to my parents house too), Singapore (also our neighbour), New Zealand (stayed there for 4 years, almost didn't go back home), Australia (so far only staying in Queensland), Narita airport (waited inside the airport there for 6 hours for a connecting flight to LAX), and the USA (Carlifornia, Colorado, Tenesse, Denver and Washington). I had some funny situations as well as bad incidents too. But interestingly (to me at least) the bad incidents normally happen were between me and other fellow M'sian. With foreigners so far I can't really think one......but when I was travelling in US for 3 weeks. It was fun.....to some people they might take it as offending but to me it was fun. To me, the immigration and security people at the airport just trying to do their work. If you give full cooperation, they won't 'disturb' you. Trust me! When I was there, almost every time I checked in at the airport I'll be singled out and asked to go for a second screening. But they were very polite about it......and since I didn't have anything to hide, I was more than happy to follow their instruction. At least, I went through their 'strict' process and got out of it unharmed!!!!!!!!! So I'm a living proof of being into so many securities at the US airports and got through with flying colors. So people, don't be afraid with the US airport security, they are very nice people. Unless if you have something to hide.................than you have to be very scared. Ok that's all for now. Will write again later. Happy Easter and wassalam. Cheers

The new line up of Malaysian ministers........ermmmm why am I not impressed?

2008-03-18T02:40:00.000-07:00

Hello and salam to all. Prime Minister, Dato' Abdullah Ahmad Badawi has announced the new line up of ministers for M'sia after the worst performance of Barisan Nasional in an election history. Frankly speaking, I'm quite happy that a few names didn't appear but again who said those who are not a minister can't be powerful? The opposition parties proved that without power also you can be as powerful as the ministers or the PM, early this month. New ministers mean new style, new rules and regulation and bla bla bla......boring. We have to revamp the whole thing sometimes just to suit to the new policies introduced by the new minister. So, I'm glad that I'm abroad now. It's quite shocking that Dato' Rafidah Aziz was not listed. Well I'm not really a big fan of her lately, BUT I must admit that she wasn't that bad as compared to other male ministers themselves. Can't wait to hear her comment after this. Is she gonna react like Dato' Zainuddin Mydin? What about Dato' Shahidan Kassim? Is he going to pay a revenge? How about Dato' Khir Toyo? He's so queit nowadays (what are you going to do with all the brooms?), last time he's quite vocal............Oh what the crap, all of these are politics. In politic anything can happen. 1 second you can be an enemy but within another second you can be lover so..............nothing new. Ok got to do some work now. To all the new appointed ministers and deputy ministers good luck and all the best. Work hard and rajin2lah melawat kawasan ye. Berat mata memandang, berat lagi bahu yg memikul. Till then. Cheers

Am I a blogger now?

2008-03-17T04:37:00.000-07:00

Salam and hello to all. Hey 1 important question I have to ask, am I considered as a blogger now? Ok this is my first entry in my own blog and it's kind of funny since I'm just randomly writing without any ideas of what I'm going to write. Actually I have to do my writing and reading work but, I opted for starting my own blog instead. Wait until my supervisor knows about this, he's going to be so furious. Anyway, I didn't know that creating your own blog can be that easy. Before this I was reading other people's blogs but now I have my own blog. What a feeling........This blog is purely for fun. You know being alone overseas (well technically not alone but I consider myself as alone anyway........) with limited activites you can do blogging is the next decent thing you can do. This is 'kewl' I can't wait to explore more of blogging world. Ok, enough said, have to do some work now and plus need to concentrate on CSI New York show. Will write more after this. So wish me luck with my new 'toy' and peace everyone. Cheers.

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